The Random Dilettante

The second this week…and it’s only Wednesday.

FIRST OFF — Watch this video * this link is no longer valid

As a military wife myself, it’s my worst fear, and if I ever got such news, I wouldn’t be able to “talk” to anyone, let alone look civilized, for MONTHS. I assume this anyway; I haven’t been there, thank god.

The fact that this wife, pulled herself together, long enough to speak to a news crew, says so much of her character. I was in awe. You could tell she was still so torn up and I could feel her pain, and how intense it must be, but yet she put sentences together, and managed to give a face and a story to her husbands death, so that it wouldn’t just be another cold news report. It tore me up to watch her, and still does just thinking about it.

Here’s what infuriates me:

Did you notice the handoff, at the end? “Ok Mike, thank you very much. And another family dealing with the grief in Kansas tonight, we appreciate that. Now in other news…” Could he get more callous and cold? Did you see any emotion in his face? Lord forbid we dwelled on this tragedy for a minute, let alone showed some remorse. This is why I hardly ever watch the news, half of them report like robots when it is serious, or are reporting worthless info. Americans need to see more stories like this, and be able to look the victims who have lost loved ones, in the eye…maybe then, the impact of what’s happening and what we should be worrying about, will hit them. But noooo….we hear of Michael Jackson, Britany Spears, what’s on the president’s IPOD, and exploding toads!

I don’t understand any of it. I can understand wanting to hear some good news, or wanting to fill up on some Hollywood drama, after a hard day at work… but the media should stop rushing through the sacrifices that soldiers and families are making everyday, out of respect…if nothing else. It had to take a great deal of effort to make her get in front of the cameras, and you can be sure they kept her talking for over 30 min of interviews….all for less than 2 min of air time.

How sweet of them! How disheartening……..

To think, some people wonder why many who have spent time overseas, would rather stay there, or can’t wait to go back. Me being one of them. It’s because once you step outside and look in, America looks trifling, shallow, and lost, and the media that’s causing it, is much easier to ignore when you don’t understand the language it’s in. No kidding.

I’m grumpy, can you tell? I stayed up too long fussing with the template of this thing. Looks cool though, huh? I like it..

It’s almost 3am. I’m not sleeping. I tried really hard too! I went to bed at 11:30, which is decent for me. Once in bed I fiddled with the alarm clock for 15 min, trying to figure out how to set the damn thing. I haven’t had to use an alarm clock since Audrey was born (nearly 2 yrs ago!). She’s up everyday at the same time, and nothing is going on before 7 am for me. Well anyway, I decided to set it and see if I could actually get my ass up out of bed at 5:30 so that I could get my workout out of the way, be showered and everything by 8 am. Usually I work out around 1pm (nap time), but then it makes my whole day seem short, and I’ve really been wanting to change things up, I just haven’t made the effort yet (as far as the alarm). But last night was different, I was motivated…

30 min later, my mind still churning errands and to do lists…I decided to just get up. I took two advil, cause sometimes they help. That was midnight. And now 3 hours later, I’m totally pissed, because my plans are going to hell, and I’m STILL wide awake for the most part. I’m kind of tired;only not. It’s lame.

But whatever… (snarling)

Before I went to bed, I was brushing my teeth, as good as ever, when I suddenly wondered if I was brushing them right, like where should I start first? Should I go up and down, or in little circles? My mom never clued me in…I’ve been winging it this whole time! So instead of sleeping like I should be, I “googled” it …and now I know.

Who knew there was a point to all this madness. All along I was meant to stay awake and learn how to brush my teeth properly. DUH Glenda!! What took you so long to figure that out? There are no such thing as coincidences, everything happens for a reason. give me a break….

Ok, “Round II” — let me try and salvage this mess. Wish me luck.

I love it, it makes me laugh everytime! Click on the pic.

Well…not really. My man left for Iraq today, my shins hurt from running on the treadmill yesterday, and on top of all of that it’s cold outside..which makes no sense. Just yesterday it was humid and hot; Kansas is so cool.

Anyway…I have some egg drop soup that was just delivered, The Apprentice is on, and later tonight is Bill Maher. All those things working together should get me off on the right foot tomorrow, or at the very least, comfort me through tonight

Some punk has jacked into my account at yahoo! It wouldn’t be a big deal except for the fact that I have photos of my kids posted there, and I’ve had that account since 98. I never really used it for email anyway, but for chat I did. All I know is someone out there should go and get a life and stop trifling in mine.

Grrrr….now is the time for a some angry sex…anyone up for some fun?

I have a new yahoo ID now, it’s : visage976 — my old one was smartgrl76 — this is for anyone who might link to this blog from my old yahoo profile —not that there is many….but just in case.

Time for bed

I’m so negligent! I really have been busy though. Last week I got into the whole “spring cleaning” thing, inside and out. Thursday I raked my entire yard, to get it ready to seed and I was one sore puppy Friday. Even my poor thumbs were swollen! I had to get it done though, everyone else had been working on their yards weeks before me, so it’s about time I decided to join in.

Oh yeah..I have to mention. As I lay exhausted and sore Thursday night I made one important decision, and that was the need for a Foot Spa! So I went and got one for a mere $28, and later that night I found a little piece of heaven. The one I have lets you choose if you want heat and bubbles, or heat, bubbles and massage. I can’t even describe how good it felt, and not to mention how soft my feet were afterwards. So seriously people, you really should go get yourself a Foot Spa, it’s the perfect end to a hard day and will leave you feeling refreshed and relaxed…Guaranteed.

My mother also came to stay overnight Saturday, I think she was really happy to get out of the home for a night. Funny thing was, she couldn’t wait to get back Sunday afternoon. She said she finally realized how good she had it there. That’s reason to celebrate! For those of you who don’t know she’s in a nursing home, and up until now has been bent on leaving, even though it’s obvious she doesn’t need to. My father passed away last October and since then she’s been a great source of stress for me. So much so, that I think I am just now getting the chance to deal with the passing of my father; I was just too caught up in her drama to even think about it in the past. I’m definitely crossing my fingers that this little light of sanity on her part doesn’t pass anytime soon…Things have finally settled into some normalcy!

Anyway, I have this HUGE craving for some popcorn right now…so I think I’m going to indulge myself, and go make some…MMMmmmmm!

More later..

Sunday went by in a daze. It was rainy and stormy and made for the perfect day to slack. It was so perfect I had to take advantage of it.

Today it’s so gloomy outside..chilly, gray and windy. I can’t wait until the warmer weather is here to stay. I used to hate the heat, but not anymore. I’d sweat my ass off any day, compared to having to bundle up all the time. It makes me second guess wanting to return to Germany, because as much as I loved it there, it was more dark and gloomy than not. The same goes for Washington state..and I love that place. I guess we all have to make our sacrifices. And I suppose a few gloomy days are worth what I would be getting in return. I would have to make my house look pretty cheery inside with “happy colors”… that might help, because as temperamental as my moods can get, the last thing I need is the weathers impact on them.

Anyway, in other news, yesterday I bought some 400CT egyptian cotton sheets. It’s an upgrade from the 360CT that was currently on my bed. Let me tell you something, if you never splurge on anything else in your life, splurge on your sheets. My bed is heaven. I can’t even describe how comforting. 400Ct is still pretty low on the totem pole, so next time I want to save up and at least get 700CT or higher. They have to be 100% egyptian cotton though, if you get some other kind of blend or the kind that says “sateen” it’s not the same, and it will feel more like silk than anything. Take my advice peeps…you’re worth it.

That’s how I feel this morning. I drank way too much wine last night, so I’m feeling trashed. I wanna go back to bed, but that’s a lot easier said, than done at my house. Blahhhhhhhh

I’m sitting here wondering if there’s any possiblity of being productive today..I think the odds are against me. We shall see.

“When You Earnestly Believe You Can Compensate For A Lack Of Skill By Doubling Your Efforts, There’s No End To What You Can’t Do”

–This cracks me up. It reminds me of how much I appreciate the sweet sting of the blunt truth. There’s something refreshing about it, don’t you think? –