The Random Dilettante

Yay for me!!

What the hell crawled up my toddlers ass, and why does she persist on being such a grumpy terd? If it’s your second child, is it written in the rule book somewhere that they must come with excessive angst, sensitivity, and energy?

Why do I always run into cool people (with definite friend potential) about 2 weeks before I’m about to move away? I must work on this when I get to NY.

Can anyone else believe I’m about to be 29??!! (be careful, this might be a trick question)

Is there such thing as too much coffee? There can’t be…

Did anyone else out there watch Commander In Chief on ABC Tuesday night? If so, were you like me, and it made you go into “Why I hate men - Why women are better” rants during every commercial break?

Why is my Dachshund such a wuss? Sure it’s starting to get a bit chilly outside, but is that an excuse to start shivering the second he gets out? 40 degrees isn’t that bad.

Is there a “knitter’s anonymous” group somewhere? I think I’m getting addicted.

And finally…

Who out there turned the water off? I just went to get a glass of water, and WTF — my faucet is dry. I could have at least gotten notice. I mean THANK GOD I wasn’t in the shower..how awful would that be! The nerve…


I’ll be using a sliding scale, and whoever scores the highest will become the teachers pet, and be forced to be at my beck and call , WITH a smile. Doesn’t that sound awesome?!

Tonight I went to the free knitting class on post. It was awesome. There were only 4 ladies there, and all of them were working on a different project, and after I told them I was there to learn how to knit, the teacher came and sat by me at the table and taught me some basic stuff. All the methods I learned over the weekend out of a “I taught myself to knit” book I bought from Walmart was apparently the “English style” of knitting. She taught me “continental style,” which definitely seems easier and a little faster. So now I’m practicing my “garter” stitch and next week I’m going to learn the “Perl” stitch.

And yes..I’m name dropping all the technical terms cause I’m proud…and a big dork.

Oh yeah. I also met a lady in the class that has bright blue hair and seems really cool. Turns out she lives right around the corner from me too (literally). So I came home tonight with a phone number..oh yeah..play on player..

I’m glad I didn’t chicken out on the class. I’m not always the best in going into new situations..unless it’s for a job or something. I got to the front doors of the Art Center tonight and was so close to turning around it wasn’t funny. {pats self on back}

So J.D. won it! He’s now the lead singer of INXS, and I have to say, he’s kind of grown on me a bit. He sounds very simliar to the old lead singer Michael Hutchence, which is a big reason I think he beat Marty out.

Marty rocked the house tonight too, I just think he has such a presence, from his stage presence to his voice, that the identitiy of INXS gets blurred because all you want to do is focus on Marty. When he sings INXS songs he gives them a whole other feel — He’s just that good..cause it takes a true rockstar to pull that off.

It’s cool J.D got it, whichever way I look at it. Plus…

I’m just stoked about Marty re-joining the Love Hammers and putting more albums out. I love him…we should get together and babies. heh. I’m so kidding. Nothings worth bringing in more monsters to take care of.

I’ve been getting so many hits from people looking for Marty Casey’s lyrics to “trees” it’s insane. If only I was interesting enough for a second visit, but alas, no such luck. At least I served a purpose once.

Today for some reason I subscribed to a free, 3 day trial to Real Player “SuperPass”, which lets me see 24/7 live feeds of the houseguest’s in Big Brother. When I first opened it up they had quad cams of everyone sleeping; I can’t tell you how weird that was. It made me feel like some kind of pervert..like why would I want to watch people sleeping, ya know? So I ended up leaving the screen up, putting on some music and cleaning the house..waiting for them to wake up, haha. It’s weird, but also a little entertaining considering the only thing on TV right now is soap opera’s or “A Baby Story” on TLC. The messed up thing is, is that they even have camera’s in all the mirrors..so when one of the girls went to go pick her nose and look at something in her teeth, I not only saw it, but saw it like I was the mirror itself. Truly disgusting. I wonder if the people on the show ever really thought about what “24-7 live feeds” were all about. They are truly like rats in a cage. I will most likely cancel my membership before I’m billed, but it’s definitely been an interesting look in, I wish I would have done it when more houseguests were in the house though..especially when Kaysar was in. I don’t know why I didn’t think of looking sooner. Right now there are only 4 girls in the house, 3 of which who talk about the most mundane things, and the fourth one seems to sleep more than anything. Plus I still can’t help thinking that’s it’s completely weird to be able to listen and watch someone do EVERYTHING…it’s a little too much like “1984″ by Orwell.

Also, I think it’s sad how none of these people know anything about Katrina, because they are not supposed to hear anything from the “outside world”…it’s one of those things I think they have a right to know about. It makes me wonder how they will take it when they get out of the house. Hopefully CBS shows a touch of their reactions when they hear about it.

Anyway, Saturday I was very productive and got tons of stuff done, so yesterday I took the liberty of doing almost nothing. I did cook a kick ass dinner though. I roasted a chicken I had been marinating for over a day in some Caribbean Jerk marinade, and then fixed some mashed potatoes that I spiced up to have a real Caribbean flavor. It was damn good. If you live near me, I will cater for a small fee

Ugg. The little one’s up from her nap..more later.

When you’re a stay at home mom, the days blend together, so really there should be no distinction between a Monday and a Friday, all the days tend to blend together. For some reason, just because I know today is today, it leads me to pick up the pace and finish the week off right (whatever that is,) meaning, clean the house and all that other domestic bullshit. This is inevitably followed by a nice glass or 5 (shhhhh) of wine. On one hand I would say, “Then why not make everyday like a Friday?” My kidneys would hate it if I did though, - flat out. But still, Fridays are so much better. Even though I realize this is nothing but a mental state and it’s all in my head, it does nothing for me. Realizing things does nothing but make you ponder what to do with your realizations. Sure, recognize your errors, but with no clue how to fix them. A lot of good that does.

It sucks to know you have issues and not know what to do with them. No one you think you can confide in, no one who cares. Lord forbid someone say they do care, it just gives you all the more reason to shoot the effort down…ahh…and then we twirl right back to the issue. Lovely.

Do you ask out of obligation? I guess that’s better than most though. I know of many who ask how I’m doing, just to hear themselves. They walk away as I mumble the answer…they were that concerned. I can just feel the love.

There’s not many people I care to ask how their doing. But when I ask, I really want to know. Even if you tell me your world is crumbling down….I asked, and I truly want to know, I wouldn’t have asked otherwise. Too many people ask, “How are you?” and smile before your mouth even opens.

Lets makes this a rule….

If it’s just for chit-chat BS…zip it. No harm done. Believe me, I’m better off with your mouth shut. We both are.

And before I go, I’d like to share how rad I think Kanye West is. It doesn’t matter if I agree or disagree with him, he’s passionate, gives a great live performance, and in my eyes that’s what matters. He’s got heart, and ain’t nothing wrong with that.

So..

I switched back to a default template, it’s kind of bland, but my other template was acting wiggy. Rather than spend hours trying to figure out why - TADA!

It’s cool tinkering with base templates though, so in a few days (or sooner) it might not look as bland. Unless I decide I like bland..which is totally possible

** UPDATE**

• It’s 1am and I’m about to stop tinkering. I added the key and lock image and the footer bar & background….not too shabby Changed the font at the top too — I love it.
• I think I’m getting a cold. How’d that happen?
• Jordis left Rock Star:INXS tonight. She looked pretty sad about it, but I wasn’t too upset over it…it’s just the sooner she can get to work on an album of her own

  Anyway, gotta get to bed. Peace out.

**If you were lucky enough to catch Rock Star:INXS tonight, you got one hell of a show. Not including J.D. and MiG, because frankly I really don’t care for them. Usually I would be going on and on about Jordis Unga, but tonight Marty won me over. (not that Jordis wasn’t great as well)

He performed a song he wrote called “Trees” and said “I wrote the song in New York City after a stressful relationship took a turn for the worse. It was a direct plea for a second chance to renew our love.”

How sweet is that?!?!

And then he started singing….and all I could do was say-“Awwwwwwwww……. “

Here are the lyrics:

I don’t want to go through this life
Without you by my side
And I’ve got it all worked out
in my head
Here’s how it’s got to be

——-


You’ve really got to hear him sing it though. I wanted to download it, but it is not availiable on MSN. GGrrrrr – I will figure something out, don’t worry. * update * (I have it now — Thanks Dennis!!) 09/22/05

Go to the Rock Star:INXS homepage, and you can watch him perform it. Just click on “videos” and it’s part of week 9.

It’s a damn catchy song, I can’t get it out of my head.

I wish I would have been on vacation! But more like a short vacation from blogging. For numerous reason’s. First I just didn’t feel like it, I was uninspired and lacking mirth with life in general. Then with the events of Hurricane Katrina, I was distracted, with good reason, as I’m sure I’m not the only one. I would write how I feel about the lack of timely response, but my opinion is nothing that you haven’t heard, or can’t read somewhere else. I’m asking questions, and trying to be satisfied with the answers. I will say that’s it very hard to be content with the explanations so far. Beyond that, it’s such an immense situation it will be interesting to see how it plays out. Hundreds of thousands of people have no home now, no insurance to recover their losses, and even if they did, it will be some time before they are even able to rebuild. I couldn’t begin to fathom how it will all work out.

Let me see…what other excuses can I come up with for ignoring my blog? I could keep going, don’t think I couldn’t

I got krunk on Friday night. A little nudge from an email I got, that had to do with my mother, convinced me it was the right thing to do. Drink now, think about it later. It definitely helped get things off my mind for a while. I was too hung over Saturday to think about any of it. So all in all it was a successful mission in my opinion.

Ummm, so besides that not a whole lot has been going on.

I’m broke
V-8 is still my favorite drink (besides coffee & wine)
Big brother still sucks (f*ck the fiendship)

Exciting huh? And if anyone is wondering about my photoblog, I’m just realizing that the kinds of photographs I want to take are nearly impossible to take without going 70 miles or more out of my way. Maybe I’m exaggerating, but I watched a program yesterday where this girl went a few blocks from her house in Montreal Canada, and visited “Old Montreal” and took these really cool black and white pictures of some metal art exhibits in the town…and I was like totally jealous. No urban themes here, just good ole Kansas. The big city is good for some things believe it or not. Not that there’s anything wrong with it out here, but at the moment I’m craving a little more of the industrialized, callous, cynical type of surrounding.