I don’t feel right this week. Like I’m not all there. Is this normal?
I feel horribly apathetic, and I keep looking for distractions that will certainly never help the situation. Maybe its hormones, I hope it is, cause I haven’t felt this way in a long time, and I really don’t want too visit long.
Cryptic I know….I’m not sure what else I can say about it right now. Maybe later when I get out of this funk.
I’m back to the grind after having 3 nights off…I can’t begin to describe how nice it was. Thanksgiving went off without a hitch and my dinner was beyond yummy. Minus the Damn Duck; it was cooked how it should have been, but I didn’t like the flavor at all. Andrew tore it up though, so to each his own! After we were completely stuffed, the kids went to their rooms and played while Andrew and I vegged on the couch and got caught up with Dexter, a series on Showtime that is seriously good TV. If anybody else out there reading this watches the show, here’s a question for you! How excited are you for the next episode?!?! I can’t wait to see how Dexter gets out of this one, if he even does. If you haven’t seen the show, you should go out and buy the first season on DVD, or put it on your X’mas wish list - it’s only $28 on Amazon, which isn’t too bad considering it’s a whole season’s worth of episodes.
On Friday I stayed away from “Black Friday” like the plague. Doesn’t it sound like the plague? I don’t get why people subject themselves to the madness. I know you can get good deals, but I don’t think any amount of money saved would be worth the stress as far as I’m concerned. Crowds and me don’t get along well. I did creep out of the house about 7pm that night to go to the local Game Stop about 2 miles away though. I caved in and bought Super Mario Galaxy on the Wii, it was on my wish list for X’mas but I couldn’t wait any longer. The reviews have been outstanding, and for good reason, the game kicks ASS. I don’t always have a lot of time to play the Wii, but I like knowing it’s there when I do have the time. Now that I got through one song on Guitar Hero I’ve lost interest. I just had to know I could complete at least one song. Andrew and Taylor still get good use out of the game though. It’s a nightly routine for Andrew to play…he’s such a nerd. 
I think I’m going to buy him a Guitar Hero t-shirt from Hot Topic for X’mas to further cement his obession with the game. I never was one to help with recovery or breaking addictions. However, I’m pretty good at encouraging them. Hard to imagine huh? ha
Upon returning to work, I was greeted with a mess as usual. When I am off for even one day, you wouldn’t believe how much things go down hill. I don’t have a lot of faith in people these days, the mediocrity and willful ignorance frustrates me. Not that I’m perfect…but DAMN there are a lot of idiots walking around out there. You can’t escape them…they are everywhere. The staff in my cottage functioned for 2 days in a kitchen with the lights off because one of the switches didn’t work when they went to turn it on. They assumed ALL the lights were out, turned in a work order and went about cooking & eating in the dark. Did they think of trying the opposite light switch on another wall? No sir. That would take too much effort. So of course I come in tonight and security tells me all of this, and I walk into the kitchen and sure enough…all they had to do was turn on the other light switch. Idiots. Never mind the fact that most of the staff I work with have college degrees…all though now days I’m not sure that says anything either. I know I sound like I’m a cranky 80 yr old instead of the young 31 I am, but that’s exactly what I’m getting at. Look how all the stupidity in the world has aged me!
Unfortunatly, the above situation is just one example of crap I run into everyday, not only at work, but every time I step outside my front door or get in my car. I know this may make me sound a little bit like an elitist….but why can’t the more “evolved”, less half-assed/lazy, not chronically self obsessed , hard workers & LOGICAL thinkers have our own planet or something? Is that too much to ask? Like I said, I’m not perfect and I have plenty of things I could improve on, but when it comes to being a pain in societies ass..this I am not. Although now that I think about it, you can’t really be a ” pain in societies ass” when most of our society is ruled & inhabited by these people, so maybe I should have just said that society is a pain in MY ASS. Not that there aren’t plenty of intelligent people around, I just think we are too scattered out….we need to join forces and start a social reform; in great numbers we could lead by example and perhaps have a little influence over our impressionable under dogs! Hehe. There’s hope anyways.
I know I sound like a bitter snob, but it frustrates me because there’s nothing I can do about these daily encounters I have with random idiots who don’ t have a clue. And trust me…it’s not that my standards are really high for people, I just need a little consideration, some work ethic, and for people to peek out of their box long enough to see the whole picture and not just what is going on in their own world. Obviously that’s a little too much to ask though.
Sorry for b*tching, but that rant NEEDED to come out. It’s been eating at me for a while now!
While I was busy cooking the Damn Duck yesterday I got a call from work and they told me I didn’t need to come in Thursday or Friday because the one kid we had that was left behind and couldn’t go home they moved to another cottage. I was ecstatic and felt so relieved about things. YAY! I got to sleep last night, and today I got up and put the Turkey in the oven with a smile on my face instead of with a look of exhaustion from working all night. While we’ve been waiting for the Turkey to get done I’ve been playing Guitar Hero on the Wii and I FINALLY completed one song. I was so proud of myself!! The song I got through was “Slow Ride” by Foghat. I rock!! Literally. Andrew has already beat the game, he’s such a show off.
Anyway, so I definitely have a lot to be thankful for this year, the only thing lacking is not having more family around.
Oh! It started snowing….instead of raining like it has been the past 2 days…so that alone is cause for celebration. I am ready for the snow, believe it or not.
Happy Thanksgiving!
I’m starting to think I’m in over my head with this whole Thanksgiving thing. I get home from work in the morning and I’m so smashed, I haven’t done anything to prepare for the big day yet. I was thinking that it would be smart to bake the pumpkin and pecan pie a few days in advance, but I have yet to start it. I have to cook Andrew’s Damn Duck ( yes, it gets capitalized) today because there’s no way there will be time to cook both the day of Thanksgiving.
My dilemma is this: How in the hell am I supposed to cook the Damn Duck and a few pies and get any sleep? It’s not like I can leave it in the oven and take a nap. I mean, I could…but we might be holding a funeral for the Damn Duck. Ha. I’m just going to have to suck it up and get the shit done tomorrow, I’m just dreading it. Maybe we should have just went out to a buffet or something. Oh well. Too late for all that now!
Don’t you just hate it when you step in the shower too early and the water is still cold? Your forced to wait for it to warm up butt-naked & freezing your ass off, while bone chilling water hits your feet for what seems like an eternity. There are few things worse in life…
Ok, so maybe there is but for now we’ll pretend there isn’t. This is how I started my day, and I’m still a little bitter about it.
Another week…another dollar. That seems to be my perspective lately.
I am looking forward to Thanksgiving though. I work that night, so it’s just a day like any other but I’m still looking forward to cooking that afternoon and hanging out with the girls & Andrew. This time next year Andrew will be deployed again, so I plan to live it up the best I can while he’s still around. I mention his deployment like it’s no big thing, but trust me, it’s a sore point. I’m trying to stay in denial as long as possible.
Last year I swore off the turkey…this year, I’m not sure I have the same resolve. I have yet to buy a Turkey because all the commissary sold were Butterball Turkey’s and those I refuse to buy. After work today I’m going to head out to the local Amish grocery store and get a turkey. I can’t resist this year! Andrew also bought a duck…he’s crazy about some duck. I’m not sure I can say the same. But we’ll see.
Anyway, I’ll leave this post with a few questions for any readers out there…
What dish are you most looking forward to this Thanksgiving? Have any family favorites that show up every year, where it wouldn’t be Thanksgiving unless they were there? As for me, it’s all pretty traditional stuff…sweet potatoes, mashed potatoes, cranberry sauce…etc. I also like green bean casserole but I’m the only one in the family, so I won’t be making it this year…the same goes for stuffing…which is a rip off, and come to think of it I might just make enough for me, Thanksgiving NEEDS stuffing if nothing else!
I hate when I skip so many days without a post. Blah.
Friday was a blast. I got off work that morning and went home and made breakfast for the crew minus Taylor. Andrew had a 4 day weekend…I was so jealous. Anyway, after breakfast I fixed Audrey up and we dropped her off at daycare for a few hours while Andrew and I went to the mall and window shopped a bit for Christmas. It was a day well spent. We needed a little “face time” because lately our schedules have been beating our asses. That night we hung out and played the Wii with Taylor once Audrey went to bed. Good Times.
Saturday on the other hand was a total waste and we didn’t get much of anything accomplished. I knew I had to be in at work that night, so I wasn’t feeling up to doing much. I’m so tired of working 6 days a week. The way my schedule goes it almost seems like I don’t have a day off. So far I don’t have a weekend off till December! We’re short people right now at work, so it’s mandatory everyone work 48 hours, and I tell myself I don’t mind this too much, and it will help with X’mas but truth be told, it’s wearing on me.
In other news, Delta is still the most awesome puppy ever. Chief is doing a lot better with her, and isn’t taking so much shit from her. Before she was totally dominating him and he was miserable, lately he’s been sticking up for himself and is much happier because of it.
Back to the work thing…because that’s all I ever have on my mind half the time. Tomorrow I’m off! How could I forget? Originally I asked off because Andrew was supposed to be out in the field all night on an exercise. As it turns out he won’t be out there all night, just really late, so I could have worked. It’s approved though, so I’m taking a mid-week break! Yay! It will be nice. There’s just something to be said for sleeping at night when everyone else is sleeping.
Anyway, I better go and get some work done ….and make some coffee. I’m drifting.
I’ve been emailing people this week…which says a lot for me. If you know me, you know this to be hard fact! It’s weird but if I were to have to point out any big shortfalls or “issues” of mine, it would be my lack of communication with people..and my difficulty with it. I tend to sail out there in the world alone, and although I think of people often, they sure wouldn’t know it because they rarely hear from me. It’s not that I’m overly involved with myself or shallow and just don’t care…it’s so much more than that. It’s an “issue” with me, one that could use a little counseling. Not that I would ever get any, mind you.
As far as phone calls, I want to say it started when I was going through so much stuff with my mother, because I would dread what would come on the other end of the line…or the next second you were standing by her. Things were always so volatile and unpredictable, I chose to start avoiding it as much as possible. After a while it just became a habit, even though I tell myself that other conversations most likely will never be as bad as those I had with my mother. Now that I think of it, that’s only one aspect of why I don’t care for talking on the phone though. I always dread I won’t know what to say, and there will be this weird awkward silence….or if your on the phone with someone who hardly lets you get a word in…that gets painful, and annoying. Or if it’s been way too long since you last called, and you have to remind them who you are again…
Me: “Hey! It’s Glenda…what’s going on?”
Them: “Glenda? WOW! Whats the special occasion?”
Yeah, that gets annoying too. It’s my own fault though…this I know.
On more than one front I tend to keep my thoughts to myself, when I should be finding a way to communicate them to people and let them know I care about them and am thinking of them. It might seem easy enough for some people, but for me it’s monumental…it’s seriously out of my comfort zone. Although sometimes I contradict myself because there are weeks it seems easier than others and I’ll come out of my shell for a while, but it’s almost guaranteed I’ll be back into hiding before too long. Why? I wish I knew.
Anyway, if I had a quick solution I would damn sure try it, but I don’t, so for now I guess I just have to embrace the good weeks when they come and be grateful that people are still around waiting to hear from me after I get back from my little “vacations”.
Alright….I need to get back to work. I’m tired and ranting. Fun eh? I got a whole 3 hours of sleep today and pretty soon it’s going to start getting all Chuck Norris on my ass. I couldn’t get winded down today and ended up doing errands and cleaning around the house most of they day. I’m such a dumbass sometimes!
PS - Bare with me on all the template changes…there’s so many ones I like, it’s hard to make up my mind, or not want to change the look just to reflect the weather! Like today…it’s COLD…much like the feel of this template!
My schedule has been so off this week…I’d explain, but I’m too lazy. I embrace laziness. Being lazy rocks…it’s a luxury not all can afford, so I say live it up when you have the chance! Oh yeah. Embrace that shit.
Can you tell I’m tired and a little punchy? Yeah…
Anywho. You seriously don’t want me writing anything else right now, it could get pretty stupid, pretty damn quick.
Instead, here’s some more pics of my favorite little girl right now…Ms. Delta 
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She looks so innocent..but don’t let her fool you! That little chicken would disagree..
Finally I found the charger for my camera battery! So of course I took Delta right outside to take some pictures! I only took about 10 because she was tired and wasn’t really cooperating. In the close-up I took you can definitly see some sleepiness there!
Anyway, I’m so happy I have some pics of her now, she’s been growing so fast and it’s been killing me because before you know it she won’t be a puppy and I would have had nothing to compare too.
She’s the cutest, don’t ya think?! Click on the file below to see one more picture that was a little too big to display properly.
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It’s Friday! I’ve made it another week! Am I the only one who feels like that at the end of the work week? I hope not, I like to think I’m semi-normal….although we all know the definition of “normal” can be open to interpretation.
I love the days where I can look forward to sleeping in my bed at the end of the day, they are all to rare. This week I only get tonight because I HAD to pick up an extra shift this week and will be working Saturday night until next Friday, and then doing the same thing all over again. I’m not looking forward to it AT ALL. We are currently short-staffed, and we have to pick up mandatory over-time. I am to the point in my job where I’m relatively used to all the BS the kids may throw at me, but you’d be surprised (or maybe not) how many people cannot/will not, work at a job like mine. The turn over rate is ridiculous. And I pay the price. Isn’t that nifty?
There’s an ad in the classifieds for a Job Fair at Time Warner Cable, as a installer/technician. I seriously would rock that job. I’m good at figuring out where all the cables go, even into fancy surround systems. Just a few months ago I had a friend ask me to fix hers and I did it in under 10 min. She was giving me all kinds of kudos, haha. So I’m thinking about going to the job fair, it’s a full-time job so I’d have my 40 hours, and I’d be working regular hours during the day, which would be nice. You sure don’t see many females out there installing your cable though, so I dunno. There’s a job requirement to be able to lift 75lbs…..that could be challenging. Other than that, I think I’d be a good fit for a job at the cable company. Anyway, we’ll see. It’s just a thought running around in my head for now. It’s tempting to go for a regular work schedule.
Anyway, I’m off to go enjoy the rest of my Friday and have a few glasses of wine. Oh yeah. It’s important to savor the sweet things in life
