The Random Dilettante

I thought dropping off Andrew last night was difficult…until I went to get ready for bed.  It was awful and painfully sobering.  And lonely.  Not to sound like a baby, but I cried myself to sleep like one.  I have barely 24hrs under my belt and I miss him so much.

I had a productive day today for the most part there’s just a sadness that I haven’t quite gotten ahold of yet.  In time I hope.

Now I know why I drank my way through the 1st deployment.  I would put the girls to bed and then get out the wine, not stopping until I hardly remembered how I got in bed that night.

I’m trying to not go that route this time, and be mature about things…not just numb myself to it all.  I have a feeling it’s going to be one hell of a challenge though.

I have some projects I want to get started this weekend that will help pass the time, so I’m looking forward to that.

I need to email my brother Damon and his wife Chaney and thank them properly, but while I am thinking of it, THANKS SO MUCH for the Birthday card and JoAnn Fabric gift card :)  Right before Andrew left we went there and I got a bunch of stuff to keep me busy…..Andrew was happy for me because he knows that (keeping busy) will be key in maintaining my sanity through this deployment.  So thanks again guys…you shouldn’t have….but I’m glad you did, hehe.